PAIN..HURT..REGRET..CONFUSED..DISAPPOINTED..thats the words to decribe what im feeling now..
im in pain..
not just anywhere else but in my heart..
im hurt..
with what had happened..
i regret..
for all that had happened..
im confused..
on how everything going to be now..
im disappointed..
with myself..
HAIZZZ...
why must all that happen??
why must it be that way??
why must i cry??
why can't i just let it go??
why must i allow it to hurt me??
why must i hurt him??
why??
WHY!!!???
things shouldn't have been that way.. if oni i hadn't dwell on it..
i should have just forget about it..
but how am i suppose to forget about what had happened??
how can i just act as if it doesn't hurt me a single bit??
how am i suppose to just let it go like that??
its impossible..
cos it hurt so bad..
really bad..
its hard to forget about it..
cos its something i never want to hear..
i noe im the cause of it.. but must i hear those words??
its not that i want it to happen..
hmm..
i should have just said no at the beginning..
i should have just gone home..
only then all this wouldnt have happen..
now im just hurting myself..
i really regret asking for that little favor..
i really regret it..
if i had known asking would hurt this bad..
i will never ask for anything..
ive never ask much but asking alone has cause me to suffer this badly..
now ive learnt my lesson..
even if i really want to ask..
i will just let it stay in my heart..
let it only be me myself and i noe what's in my mind and in my heart..
='(
after today..
i will never ask for anything..
even if i want it badly..
i just keep it to myself..
cos i have made a promise to myself..
i wont let history be repeated..
i never want to hurt him animore..
i don't want anything..
i just want him to be happy..
so i'll just let it hurt myself..
his happiness is mine..
his sorrow is mine..
my happiness is his..
but my sorrow..
let it oni be mine..
he don't need to know my suffering..
let me be selfish..
i only want him to be happy..
and i will try my best to make that smile stay there forever..
im sorry for everthing that had happened..
im sorry for hurting you..
im sorry for not being good to you..
im sorry...
i have failed to make you happy..
i have cos pain in you..
im sorry..
as ive promise..
it wont happen again..
i will be your goody girl..
im promise..
i wont let anything hurt you..
i wont let my wants hurt you..
i wont let you feel what i feel..
i will always make you smile..
i love you..
=]
