BAD DAY!!!My days can never be as FCUKED up as today..
THANX to this 2nd-granny of mine!!
RUINED my day even more..
its bad ENOUGH that i had a bad day yesterdae..
and today..
oh god.. i tot it will be better..
BUT!!!
her presence and her FCUKING mouth just spoilt my mood futher!!
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!i felt like slapping her.. but lucky for her..
cos im still aware she is old and physically unwell..
BUT that FCUKING mouth of hers just wont stop talking shit!!!
here is a brief summary of wat happened..
eka and i just reached boon lay interchange to fetch my beloved granny and grandpa..
little did i noe my granny's sister, which unfortunately IS my 2nd-granny, was there too..
i didnt noe anything about today's wedding reception..
im only told to fetch my grandparents and take 255 to the venue..
BOOM!! thats when everything started..
THIS 2nd-granny suddenly shouted at me..
saying I, i repeat I, can't afford 90cents to travel to her house and give her the wedding card!!
WAT THE FCUK!!
i don't know anything sia!!
that part is still ok uh..
still can take it..
den after we took the bus to the wedding venue,
i was talking to my mom on the phone..
and there she goes again..
i told my mom we've reached the place..
out of a sudden she screamed and said
"TELL HER ITS AT JURONG POINT.. NOT JURONG WEST!! SAY PROPERLY LARH.. TALK LIKE NO LIPS.."
WAT THE FCUK!!hey my mom should noe better where is the place..
den adding to the heat.. she said again..
"CHILDREN NOWADAYS.. THE HIGHER EDUCATED THEY ARE, THEY'VE BECOME MORE STUPID"...
AARRRRGGHHH!!thats it!! ive lose my patience!!
she really make me blow my top..
i swear at that point of time i really wanna TOLD HER OFF!!
my mouth just cant stop cursing and swearing at her!!
AAAARRRGGGHH!!she really have a foul mouth!!
hah!! no wonder all her children and grandchildren dislike her and disowned her..
her foul mouth makes people hate her..
and its a shame that she has just returned from the HAJ..
i really hope when i grow old..
i wont be like her..
OH GOD!! MAKE HER SHUT HER TRAP!!
@#%^&*((*^#%&((^&**(@!^&*$^*))(^$#!~#%&
yesterday was bad enough for me..
and she just made it worse..
haizzzz...
wat a luck.. -_-"
im soo in dilemma now..
words can convey a totally different meaning if used wrongly..
im feeling even insecure after last night incident..
HAIZZZzzz..
i had a terrible headache thinking of the different possibilities of yesterday's incident..
no matter how hard i tried to forget all the words said..
they still comes back to me when im all alone..
it comes knocking my head..
making me think negatively of the things said..
HMMMmmm..
im so confused..
how did it all happen..
why did all that happen..
tears just cant stop flowing down my cheeks..
i didnt wish for all that to happen..
i didnt want it to happen..
and ive never dreamt those words to be said..
im soo helpless now..='(
maybe its time for a change..
maybe i should change my mindset..
i must change for the better..
hmm..
but will that change anything since i will still feel insecure..
im losing my confidence..
ive lost confidence in myself..
i don't know if i can still be strong..
but i have to..
hmm..
OH GOD!! GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO FACE ALL THESE..
im becoming weaker and weaker..
im becoming fearful of what u have for me..
im becoming afraid of what tomorrow brings..
haizzzZZZ...
sayang.. i love you..and i'll never leave you..i hope u too won't leave me.. =okies.. thats all for now..
till next time.. bye!! take care peeps!!
-ayn-
