HOLD ME TIGHT

.:HIS GURL:.

Name:Nurul Ai'in Baharudin
Bdae:03.03.1989
Nicks:Ayn..Ariyan
Skool:NYP SBM
Contact:rain_far@hotmail.com
Status:..TAKEN.. :)

.:LOVE:.

MohamMed RohaiZad
D.O.B : 14.08.85

.:DeDicaTioN:.

There were times of day
I put my life completely in your arms
And if you should feel
I could do more to please you
Then baby tell me how oh oh
Baby I can't breathe
when you touch my body
When your heart beats its like music to me
And I can't see my life with out you
Baby it's all up to you
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.:SWEET TALK:.

.:EXIT:.

.:SoNgs:.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

hello peeps!!

hmm.. today supposed to be the start of skool aft a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNGGG sems break.. hahah.. but unfortunately all the lessons today is elearning.. hmm.. but wateva it is im back in skool JUST TO DO MY MANAGEMENT PROJECT.. but.. we got nothing to discuss cos today's interview wif the manager is postponed!!! wth rite?? wasted my PRECIOUS TIME AND MY PRECIOUS $$.. haiz... wat a luck.. lols :)p

soo im here in the free access leab hitting the keyboard jus to update my blog.. hmm.. wat am i suppose to say??? my 2 weeks holiday really SUCKS!! and i think ive put on EXTRA weight lately.. lols.. AYN!!! URE GROWING FAT!!! hahahaha...

all i ever did during my FREE time is eat, watch tv and sleep... haizz.. bored bored bored rite??? hmm.. but thank god nite isnt soo bad cos thats the time ehem ehem contact me.. it's either sms or call.. but lately things have change.. we aint contacting each other that frequent.. and im quite uneasy abt it.. but wateva it is i still getting the hang of it.. hmm.. thats the only way to get things clear in my head that WE'RE JUST FRIENDS!!! hmmm...

hmm.. 2007.. suppose to be a better year for me.. but before it even started the start of 2007 is ruined and its a total heart wrecking..
first, he has changed and i dont think i even know him animore..
second, my sis has yet to give birth even after a LONNGGGG LABOUR PAIN!! haiz.. wat a stubborn child she has.. hahaha.. im soo dead tired going thru and fro to kk hospital.. haha..
third, my parents is taking control of ME!! idiot.. especially my dad.. now we're not in talking terms.. its either me or him not talking to me... den again.. ALL THANKS TO MY MOM FOR CORRUPTING MY HEAD THEN IVE BEGUN TO DRIFT FURTHER AWAY FROM MY DAD.. haiz... i just dun understand my parents they are always out to brainwash me and my sisters.. and im beginning to get sick of it.. i cant do anything cos its between them adults.. haizzz... im like half dead just thinking about them.. luckily ive yet to go through depression cos its still under my control... lols..
fourth, my parents has put loads of responsibilities of my sis eka on me.. haiz.. and if anything is to go wrong im put responsible for it... i hate it.. hmm... still i got no chance since im closest to her.. haiz.. sooo IM BEGGING U EKA DONT CREATE ANY TROUBLE OR PROBLEM FOR ME.. FOR MY SAKE PLEASE.. okies...

i guess thats the destruction of a new clean beginning ive been thru soo far.. and oh yes.. not to mention today the IDIOTIC DAY!! hahah..

hmm.. i dont know why but i have the feeling that im no longger myself.. it should be a good one rite?? but for me its bad.. very bad.. i dont feel cheerful and happie like last time.. i feel isolated and abandoned.. is it jus my feelings or am i really losing my loved ones.. haiz.. i feel totally LOST!! im not at my usual place.. i feel out of place.. haiz... wats happening to me????

to ehem ehem.. i dont know if u have any idea wat im going thru lately.. hmm.. but all i have to say is that u dun have to create hatred in me if ure rejecting me.. im having this feeling that ure somehow making me hate u soo that the "break-up" wont be soo bad.. is it jus my feeling or am i rite to say that??? i dont know.. i really dont know what ure thinking.. really i dont know.. ure not saying a yes or a no.. hmm... im not desperate for a boy-girl-relationship rite now.. but wat i need to know is whether its a yes or a no.. i mean whether ure feeling the same way as i am for u.. thats all.. i dont know.. it look positive but it sounds soo negative... hmm.. i got no idea...

to my long lost girls, I MISS U GIRLS SOOOO MUCH!!! when will we get to get together again?? sob sob... we're like drifting apart.. FARAH!!! UMAIRAH!! I MISS U!!! please please please.. i wanna meet u girls.. lets go out for a walk or something.. okies... ='(

ok lah.. the more i blogged the more sad im feeling.. ok lah.. bye for now.. im missing all my peeps!!! **muackkss** contact me at my cell if u got aniting okies??? take care everyone!!

::Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You:: AYN & HAIZAD::